Glasses

CHAPTER VII

I don’t remember how soon it was I spoke to Geoffrey Dawling; his sittings were irregular, but it was certainly the very next time he gave me one.

“Has any rumour ever reached you of Miss Saunt’s having anything the matter with her eyes?”  He stared with a candour that was a sufficient answer to my question, backing it up with a shocked and mystified “Never!”  Then I asked him if he had observed in her any symptom, however disguised, of embarrassed sight; on which, after a moment’s thought, he exclaimed “Disguised?” as if my use of that word had vaguely awakened a train.  “She’s not a bit myopic,” he said; “she doesn’t blink or contract her lids.”  I fully recognised this and I mentioned that she altogether denied the impeachment; owing it to him moreover to explain the ground of my inquiry, I gave him a sketch of the incident that had taken place before me at the shop.  He knew all about Lord Iffield; that nobleman had figured freely in our conversation as his preferred, his injurious rival.  Poor Dawling’s contention was that if there had been a definite engagement between his lordship and the young lady, the sort of thing that was announced in the Morning Post, renunciation and retirement would be comparatively easy to him; but that having waited in vain for any such assurance he was entitled to act as if the door were not really closed or were at any rate not cruelly locked.  He was naturally much struck with my anecdote and still more with my interpretation of it.

“There is something, there is something—possibly something very grave, certainly something that requires she should make use of artificial aids.  She won’t admit it publicly, because with her idolatry of her beauty, the feeling she is all made up of, she sees in such aids nothing but the humiliation and the disfigurement.  She has used them in secret, but that is evidently not enough, for the affection she suffers from, apparently some definite menace, has lately grown much worse.  She looked straight at me in the shop, which was violently lighted, without seeing it was I.  At the same distance, at Folkestone, where as you know I first met her, where I heard this mystery hinted at and where she indignantly denied the thing, she appeared easily enough to recognise people.  At present she couldn’t really make out anything the shop-girl showed her.  She has successfully concealed from the man I saw her with that she resorts in private to a pince-nez and that she does so not only under the strictest orders from her oculist, but because literally the poor thing can’t accomplish without such help half the business of life.  Iffield however has suspected something, and his suspicions, whether expressed or kept to himself, have put him on the watch.  I happened to have a glimpse of the movement at which he pounced on her and caught her in the act.”

I had thought it all out; my idea explained many things, and Dawling turned pale as he listened to me.

“Was he rough with her?” he anxiously asked.

“How can I tell what passed between them?  I fled from the place.”

My companion stared.  “Do you mean to say her eyesight’s going?”

“Heaven forbid!  In that case how could she take life as she does?”

“How does she take life?  That’s the question!”  He sat there bewilderedly brooding; the tears rose to his lids; they reminded me of those I had seen in Flora’s the day I risked my enquiry.  The question he had asked was one that to my own satisfaction I was ready to answer, but I hesitated to let him hear as yet all that my reflections had suggested.  I was indeed privately astonished at their ingenuity.  For the present I only rejoined that it struck me she was playing a particular game; at which he went on as if he hadn’t heard me, suddenly haunted with a fear, lost in the dark possibility.  “Do you mean there’s a danger of anything very bad?”

“My dear fellow, you must ask her special adviser.”

“Who in the world is her special adviser?”

“I haven’t a conception.  But we mustn’t get too excited.  My impression would be that she has only to observe a few ordinary rules, to exercise a little common sense.”

Dawling jumped at this.  “I see—to stick to the pince-nez.”

“To follow to the letter her oculist’s prescription, whatever it is and at whatever cost to her prettiness.  It’s not a thing to be trifled with.”

“Upon my honour it shan’t be!” he roundly declared; and he adjusted himself to his position again as if we had quite settled the business.  After a considerable interval, while I botched away, he suddenly said: “Did they make a great difference?”

“A great difference?”

“Those things she had put on.”

“Oh the glasses—in her beauty?  She looked queer of course, but it was partly because one was unaccustomed.  There are women who look charming in nippers.  What, at any rate, if she does look queer?  She must be mad not to accept that alternative.”

“She is mad,” said Geoffrey Dawling.

“Mad to refuse you, I grant.  Besides,” I went on, “the pince-nez, which was a large and peculiar one, was all awry: she had half pulled it off, but it continued to stick, and she was crimson, she was angry.”

“It must have been horrible!” my companion groaned.

“It was horrible.  But it’s still more horrible to defy all warnings; it’s still more horrible to be landed in—”  Without saying in what I disgustedly shrugged my shoulders.

After a glance at me Dawling jerked round.  “Then you do believe that she may be?”

I hesitated.  “The thing would be to make her believe it.  She only needs a good scare.”

“But if that fellow is shocked at the precautions she does take?”

“Oh who knows?” I rejoined with small sincerity.  “I don’t suppose Iffield is absolutely a brute.”

“I would take her with leather blinders, like a shying mare!” cried Geoffrey Dawling.

I had an impression that Iffield wouldn’t, but I didn’t communicate it, for I wanted to pacify my friend, whom I had discomposed too much for the purposes of my sitting.  I recollect that I did some good work that morning, but it also comes back to me that before we separated he had practically revealed to me that my anecdote, connecting itself in his mind with a series of observations at the time unconscious and unregistered, had covered with light the subject of our colloquy.  He had had a formless perception of some secret that drove Miss Saunt to subterfuges, and the more he thought of it the more he guessed this secret to be the practice of making believe she saw when she didn’t and of cleverly keeping people from finding out how little she saw.  When one pieced things together it was astonishing what ground they covered.  Just as he was going away he asked me from what source at Folkestone the horrid tale had proceeded.  When I had given him, as I saw no reason not to do, the name of Mrs. Meldrum he exclaimed: “Oh I know all about her; she’s a friend of some friends of mine!”  At this I remembered wilful Betty and said to myself that I knew some one who would probably prove more wilful still.

CHAPTER VIII

A few days later I again heard Dawling on my stairs, and even before he passed my threshold I knew he had something to tell.

“I’ve been down to Folkestone—it was necessary I should see her!”  I forget whether he had come straight from the station; he was at any rate out of breath with his news, which it took me however a minute to apply.

“You mean that you’ve been with Mrs. Meldrum?”

“Yes, to ask her what she knows and how she comes to know it.  It worked upon me awfully—I mean what you told me.”  He made a visible effort to seem quieter than he was, and it showed me sufficiently that he had not been reassured.  I laid, to comfort him and smiling at a venture, a friendly hand on his arm, and he dropped into my eyes, fixing them an instant, a strange distended look which might have expressed the cold clearness of all that was to come.  “I know—now!” he said with an emphasis he rarely used.

“What then did Mrs. Meldrum tell you?”

“Only one thing that signified, for she has no real knowledge.  But that one thing was everything.”

“What is it then?”

“Why, that she can’t bear the sight of her.”  His pronouns required some arranging, but after I had successfully dealt with them I replied that I was quite aware of Miss Saunt’s trick of turning her back on the good lady of Folkestone.  Only what did that prove?  “Have you never guessed?  I guessed as soon as she spoke!”  Dawling towered over me in dismal triumph.  It was the first time in our acquaintance that, on any ground of understanding this had occurred; but even so remarkable an incident still left me sufficiently at sea to cause him to continue: “Why, the effect of those spectacles!”

I seemed to catch the tail of his idea.  “Mrs. Meldrum’s?”

“They’re so awfully ugly and they add so to the dear woman’s ugliness.”  This remark began to flash a light, and when he quickly added “She sees herself, she sees her own fate!” my response was so immediate that I had almost taken the words out of his mouth.  While I tried to fix this sudden image of Flora’s face glazed in and cross-barred even as Mrs. Meldrum’s was glazed and barred, he went on to assert that only the horror of that image, looming out at herself, could be the reason of her avoiding the person who so forced it home.  The fact he had encountered made everything hideously vivid, and more vivid than anything else that just such another pair of goggles was what would have been prescribed to Flora.

“I see—I see,” I presently returned.  “What would become of Lord Iffield if she were suddenly to come out in them?  What indeed would become of every one, what would become of everything?”  This was an enquiry that Dawling was evidently unprepared to meet, and I completed it by saying at last: “My dear fellow, for that matter, what would become of you?”

Once more he turned on me his good green eyes.  “Oh I shouldn’t mind!”

The tone of his words somehow made his ugly face beautiful, and I discovered at this moment how much I really liked him.  None the less, at the same time, perversely and rudely, I felt the droll side of our discussion of such alternatives.  It made me laugh out and say to him while I laughed: “You’d take her even with those things of Mrs. Meldrum’s?”

He remained mournfully grave; I could see that he was surprised at my rude mirth.  But he summoned back a vision of the lady at Folkestone and conscientiously replied: “Even with those things of Mrs. Meldrum’s.”  I begged him not to resent my laughter, which but exposed the fact that we had built a monstrous castle in the air.  Didn’t he see on what flimsy ground the structure rested?  The evidence was preposterously small.  He believed the worst, but we were really uninformed.

“I shall find out the truth,” he promptly replied.

“How can you?  If you question her you’ll simply drive her to perjure herself.  Wherein after all does it concern you to know the truth?  It’s the girl’s own affair.”

“Then why did you tell me your story?”

I was a trifle embarrassed.  “To warn you off,” I smiled.  He took no more notice of these words than presently to remark that Lord Iffield had no serious intentions.  “Very possibly,” I said.  “But you mustn’t speak as if Lord Iffield and you were her only alternatives.”

Dawling thought a moment.  “Couldn’t something be got out of the people she has consulted?  She must have been to people.  How else can she have been condemned?”

“Condemned to what?  Condemned to perpetual nippers?  Of course she has consulted some of the big specialists, but she has done it, you may be sure, in the most clandestine manner; and even if it were supposable that they would tell you anything—which I altogether doubt—you would have great difficulty in finding out which men they are.  Therefore leave it alone; never show her what you suspect.”

I even before he quitted me asked him to promise me this.  “All right, I promise”—but he was gloomy enough.  He was a lover facing the fact that there was no limit to the deceit his loved one was ready to practise: it made so remarkably little difference.  I could see by what a stretch his passionate pity would from this moment overlook the girl’s fatuity and folly.  She was always accessible to him—that I knew; for if she had told him he was an idiot to dream she could dream of him, she would have rebuked the imputation of having failed to make it clear that she would always be glad to regard him as a friend.  What were most of her friends—what were all of them—but repudiated idiots?  I was perfectly aware that in her conversations and confidences I myself for instance had a niche in the gallery.  As regards poor Dawling I knew how often he still called on the Hammond Synges.  It was not there but under the wing of the Floyd-Taylors that her intimacy with Lord Iffield most flourished.  At all events, when a week after the visit I have just summarised Flora’s name was one morning brought up to me, I jumped at the conclusion that Dawling had been with her, and even I fear briefly entertained the thought that he had broken his word.