There was another interesting and unexpected case that happened to me when I was watching Animal Planet. They showed walking elephants, and there was a small elephant running in front of them. I do not know how and why, but suddenly I was able to know and feel everything that the elephant calf was experiencing and thinking at that moment. Speaking of “thinking”, he had the same exact thinking (or awareness of one’s existence, consciousness) as humans, but, naturally, limited to the creature’s brain. It was the only such experience in my life, and, taking into account the rest of the spiritual experiences that I had in this life, I believe that it clearly showed me the answer to my question.
Then I found confirmation of my idea in the book Thiaoouba Prophecy where Thao tells Michel that there is a great need for discipline on Earth, but “discipline” does not mean dictatorship. She further says that “the Creator himself obliges no creature, human or otherwise, to do anything against its will. We all have free will and it is up to us to discipline ourselves in order to improve spiritually.”.12
The fact that the Superior Intelligence does not oblige animals to do anything against their will tells us that they also have a part of the Spirit in themselves. Robots have neither will nor consciousness, and will never have them. They are just tools that have been programmed by the intellect to do what the intellect wants them to do. We can say that a living being is someone who has the infinitesimal part of the Spirit (Superior Intelligence) in them and is aware of his existence, and a robot is something that does not have the part of Superior Intelligence in itself and is not aware of its existence.
Of course, one may ask how I could doubt whether animals have a soul or not. But truth does not tolerate conclusions based on emotions, and not on logic and common sense.
By the way, in the Golden Doko on Thiaoouba, the body of Jesus was, judging by what Michel Desmarquet wrote, the only one with wounds. I wondered why other similar messengers who played their important role on other planets were not “crucified” – murdered, to be precise. Why did a human being from a planet of the highest category have to suffer so much, considering that only the most highly developed beings are born on planets of the 9th category, and therefore he could not make a mistake while living on Thiaoouba? So, what is the reason?
To answer this question, one needs to recall the teachings of Thaora that the soul can rejoin the Higher Self of the next category, if a person has lived his life so that the Higher Self of the same category as the person’s Astral body had nothing to filter.
Thus, a person can commit a crime, say, on a planet of the first category, and in the next life he can live his life so that his Higher Self will have nothing to filter, since the person did not do and did not think anything negative in relation to himself and others.
This can happen, for example, when committing several identical crimes (mistakes), and then learning your lesson when it is time to pay by suffering for one of the mistakes. As a result of such correct decisions, the Astral body of a person is rejoined with the Higher Self of the second category, and maybe even with the Higher Self of higher category, if the person has learned the relevant lessons, and the Higher Self of the second category also had nothing to filter out from the received sensations.
In theory, a person can reach the ninth category with an outstanding error. Naturally, according to Universal Law he cannot be reunited with the Spirit until the error is paid for by suffering. It may well be that Aarioc (as the crucified Christ was called on Thiaoouba) was interested in who he was in the past lives. If this is so, then I am not surprised that he volunteered to live 3 years in the body of Christ, knowing that it was his time to pay for old mistakes and at the same time teach earthlings love and spirituality.
It is worth mentioning Thao’s words about the first and only time when Jesus was angry. It happened when he was making a statement against money and tipped over the merchants’ tables at the temple. First, I think it was a mistake to get angry – even on the topic of money – and money is one of the main dangers on Earth; and secondly, I do not think that the crucifixion and other accompanying torments that Jesus had to endure were the payment of this mistake.
Soon my eyes opened to yet another simple truth. I realized that in fact no one had ever offended me in my life – I myself chose to be offended. I also had the choice to learn from the “negative” things that people said or thought about me – after all, these are just data that we ourselves decide how to interpret.
Firstly, it becomes clear that such people are not very spiritually developed, since they choose to commit an erroneous action with all the ensuing consequences. Secondly, I needed to understand if the reason for their negativity was caused by the result of me making a mistake. If the answer is yes, as in the case of facial expressions, then I need to replace the erroneous action, which leads to suffering for the error, with the correct one, which leads to relaxation, peace, and happiness. If the answer is no, as is the case with my knowledge concerning Thiaoouba, then nothing needs to be changed, since I am not making a mistake in spreading my knowledge.
The same applies to all those people on the planet who call themselves minorities and are offended by what people of other views speak about them. They themselves choose to be offended…
It also follows from this that while in my school years I was right about the fact that all the negative statements of people will remain in my memory until the end of my days, I still have a choice of what I will do with those memories. And of course, it is worth living in the real life, focusing your attention on the present moment of life – in this state, a person has in his mind only what he needs to have for normal functioning in the real situation that surrounds him, and all memories remain in the backyard of consciousness, from where they can be quickly and easily pulled out if necessary.
In autumn, it became known about the death of my mother’s sister Zina. She was already over ninety years old. She was always kind to me. Unfortunately, there was a negative experience associated with the housing dispute, and I again thought about the curse of the monetary system that encourages people to do rather wrong things.
Around the same time, the fall of 2017, I got attracted very strong to two streamers. One was called Nastya, and the other was Alyona.
Speaking of Nastya, I started to like her when I heard her voice while watching another streamer with whom she played the game “Deceit”. I thought he was her boyfriend, since they lived together, but then she answered someone on her stream that he was her brother.
I remembered then my story with Marina, when I thought that there was almost no chance that a girl could live with her brother. I was glad to learn something new about life, and this news also played a small role in calming me down, as I was beginning to see that I was not the only one who did not have sex and love – at least it seemed so.
Then she helped, without knowing it, in another moment relating to her removed tooth. I understand that even though my lateral tooth was filled, it seems that this is only a matter of time before I have to say goodbye to it. If this day comes, then it will not be so hard for me to live through it.
It can be noted that she also did not like her age of 25 years.
As for Alyona, for some interweaving of the Universe, I also began to like her when I heard her unique voice in GTAV Online, while I was watching another streamer. After finding her stream, I often started to come to her channel and watch her broadcasts. I liked her so much that I began to fall in love with her. Perhaps this was helped by my imagination, which I still was using for wrong purposes.
I thought if she had a boyfriend or not. In my imagination, she, of course, not only did not have a boyfriend, but she was often a virgin. When I say “she”, I certainly mean a girl who is very similar to her, but has almost nothing to do with the real person.
Once I was watching a stream of one of my favorite streamers, whom I watched for many years. Someone in the chat asked him how he met one girl who also became a streamer. His reply was that he had seen her in VK, and he just upped and wrote her a message.
I decided that I would do the same and just write Alyona in VK. She had previously seen my message in her chat, and I told her in the VK message about who I was. To start the conversation, I decided to ask her about streaming which I had long thought to do, but could not because of my housing situation. She answered me, and then I tried to talk to her about something else. She also answered me. The next day, I greeted Alyona in her chat, and it seemed to me that she saw my message, but ignored it. I also got the feeling that she felt a little uneasy at the sight of it. Given the recent negative events when meeting with girls who, in a somewhat rude manner, did not pay attention to me, I was hurt and offended.
It is possible that I just exaggerated everything.
In any case, armed with my recent realizations, I tried to redirect my attention to something else so as not to have negative emotions.
I had the idea to try to start streaming – in fact, this thought has been in my head for many years, but due to living conditions, it could never become reality. Since I could not do this next to my mother in the one-room apartment, I thought of going to my father’s apartment during the day, stream there, and then return home. Father’s foot bone had already healed, and he found a job. So, I could be alone at home, and we would not interfere with each other. I wanted to start streaming to train my speech and gain confidence. I also had a thought creep into my head that in this way I could get acquainted with the two girls I liked. I almost did not doubt that I would really begin to stream from my father’s apartment, and I was preparing everything necessary for this.
I woke up in the middle of the night, and I had a clear thought in my head that “I do not need to stream”. This was the second time that I received instruction in this way. The first one happened a few years earlier when I was thinking of buying an iPad for reading books in English, since my laptop was not very convenient for this. I also woke up in the middle of the night and had a clear thought that I did not need an iPad. The message itself came, as I understand it, from my Higher Self. Thao told Michel that the Astral body leaves the physical body during sleep to reunite with the Higher Self in order to either transmit information or to receive information and orders. The proverb “The morning is wiser than the evening” refers precisely to this truth. In Thiaoouba Prophecy they use the old French saying “The night brings counsel”…
There was a time when I watched old videos from one of the streamers. My heart started beating violently when it was mentioned that Alyona would arrive soon. I rewound the video forward, and my heart was beating even harder when on the video she was sitting next to that streamer because of whom I decided to write to her. One of her references to oral sex began to dispel some of my illusions. At the same time, I could not find peace inside of me, as everything that I had created in my imagination about her began to crumble.
In search for the truth, I went to watch other recordings of the streams that took place later. It hurt me again to see how that streamer began to make it clear in a peculiar way that he liked Alyona, the girl that I was in love with. Soon, she reciprocated, and the end of the recorded stream was happening without their presence.
It was one of the hardest moments of my life. I felt like a total loser. I tried not to think about what was or was not between them. In fact, it was not my business, even though I had feelings for the girl. But I must say that part of me again tried to build barriers in which I tried to protect myself from the possible truth, thinking that if my fears were confirmed, they would have lived together already.
I understood that the streamer had nothing to do with my torment, but I just could not watch his streams anymore. This went on for more than six months, and I had to skip his walkthrough of the GTAV game – something I was looking forward to earlier.
But I would not have had my spiritual experience with Thiaoouba if I had not been able to see the obvious things – it was only myself who was to blame for my sufferings about Alyona, and no one else. Moreover, from Universal Law on the paying for mistakes it follows that all people suffer only for their own mistakes! Therefore, if you experience suffering, then you should know that this is a direct consequence of your own choices made by you in the past: in this life or in one of the past ones – provided you do not live your first life. I understand that sometimes it may be hard to accept this truth, but it is so. And yes, inaction is also a choice, followed by its consequences. Because of my stubbornness, I could not immediately make all these simple understandings a part of my life.
After a while, I saw a recording of Alyona’s stream with some guy I had never seen before. I was not surprised that she decided to dye her hair red. Their webcams were located in different corners of the screen, and I watched with trepidation the video to the end, so that in the end I could see how they bang their fists together, being in the same room. Everything became clear.
Suffering because of Alyona was the very reckoning for mistakes made.
One of the mistakes was that I allowed myself to think that I could be her boyfriend. It should be noted that, as usual, I decided to search in the Internet if there were streamers who really found love in their chat. And such cases really exist. But there is one “but.”
Walking along the street and thinking about all this, I realized another simple truth – there is a chance that someone will find a second half in the chat, someone will find love on a dating site, someone will fall in love at first sight with a foreigner who came for just one day, and they will live their lives together. The question is, what is this chance? And the answer will be – it is very, very small. For this reason, it is not logical to hope that, for example, you will find love on a dating site after reading one of the success stories, just as it would not be logical to think that on a dating site you can never find a life partner. You simply cannot know what will happen in the future! Therefore, you should not limit yourself only to acquaintance in the park, at work, or on dating sites. The chance to find someone exists always and everywhere. Naturally, this truth applies not only to the search for love.
These thoughts are related to another truth of life that I could see back when I was a programmer, when I found out that there is no randomness in computers, but “pseudorandomness”. In order to generate random numbers people often use time which is constantly in motion, changing. If the random number generation function is given the same number, then the “random” number will be the same.
The simple truth itself is that 2 + 2 always gives 4 in the Universe. But the interest lies in how this relates to the Superior Intelligence and the creation of the Universe? When I met Marina, I realized because of a myriad of synchronicities that I saw our meeting when I was previewing my possible future life with my Higher Self – I lived the way I should have lived, and I suffered because of my mistakes, and not because of the coincidences of nature. And this, in turn, meant that all the nonsense that I had ever imagined in all the years of my life was also known even before I agreed to be born and live in my physical body – I saw all my fantasies in the “film” that was shown to me by my Higher Self. It was a fact – even our fantasies are a direct consequence of the events, taking place in our lives, and our knowledge (material and spiritual).
I have never written in detail in this book about the themes of my imagination. And they were very different. Aside from sex, I also daydreamed of life on other planets, space stations, the society turning to a spiritual path where money no longer existed, about police officers, pigeons, and so on. Now that I knew that everything that I imagined was a direct consequence of the events of my life and the knowledge that I had, I could see all those reasons for my fantasies. Life events made me interested in sex from an early age; I became interested in space and life on other planets after I saw that bright entity in the village; thanks to Thiaoouba I realized that we do not need in our life money, which is a parasitic system; the police played an important role in my life several times; pigeons also pleased me with their company for many years. Everything has its exact reason for existing.
Because of this, you should not be afraid of all that you do not understand. For example, I heard about a community in the USA, in which people gather in order to calmly discuss the “voices in their head” that they have and other little-known things that they experience. This is the right approach. They try to find the truth, and they understand that their experience, unusual for other people, is a part of life and has its own reason for existence.
Then I thought about what Thiaooubians taught us. The Spirit imagined worlds and everything that will ever exist: me, you, coronavirus, the atom that was destined to become the ball in an IBM film [17] – everything. The question is, if what we imagine depends on what we know from the material world, then how could the Spirit imagine something when there was no material world? Who is the Spirit? And what is matter? In the Gospel of Thomas, verse 29, Jesus speaks a phrase that may have the answer to my question. There are different translations of the original text into English, and they are slightly different. In order not to introduce distortion, I will not provide a translated quote in this book. If you are interested, then you can easily find the Gospel of Thomas on the Internet.
So, 2 + 2 = 4 always. This means that all actions taking place in the Universe have absolutely exact consequences. There is no randomness in the Universe.
The same applies to atoms, and to photons with electrons, and to all the particles that we have yet to discover – they all function according to the absolutely exact Laws of the Universe.
As for the particles, there is a mention from Michel Desmarquet experience on Thiaoouba that everything is vibration. I often thought about this, and my current idea is that if we move closer and closer to the depths of the atom and then to the depths of quarks, after which we will go deeper and deeper, then we will see a simple vibration of the infinite space. This vibration can be compared with a sinusoid which has two states when one of its peaks is first on top and then at the bottom. And the third state is the average value, balance. I hope my analogy is clear.
I believe that it is for the above reasons that the Spirit, being the one and only creator of the Universe, knew everything that would ever happen in it before he created it. I think that this is how we can preview our possible future lives with the Higher Selves – all interactions of all particles and vibrations of the Universe that will ever be connected with a person are calculated. Naturally, the spiritual knowledge of a person, as well as the spiritual and material knowledge of people with whom he will interact, are also taken into account in calculating what a person can experience and learn in his potential new physical body if he chooses to be born in it.
As for us people, we can only make assumptions about our future based on our knowledge. Thiaooubians, for example, knowing everything that can be known in this Universe, can predict the future for about a hundred years in advance. Of course, the decisions of other parts of the Superior Intelligence very often affect our life: the Spirit itself, people, and animals. I very often notice how I go somewhere along a familiar road, and I must change the route because the road is either blocked off, or some huge dog meets me on the way, or maybe some event on the street makes me understand that it is better to go somewhere else, etcetera. This is an example of how we, unlike the Superior Intelligence and Higher Selves, cannot know the future one hundred percent. This is not possible for us.
Returning to Alyona, my other mistake, which continues my life story, was to allow myself to fantasize a lot about her. The opening reality began to crush my illusions one after another. As a result, I was left with what I actually had in reality – with everything that I had before I began to actively fantasize. Accordingly, all the time that I spent on fantasies was almost wasted. I lost all those minutes and days of my life in which I could do something useful for myself. But losing something, we always find something. And I [again] found the knowledge what unrestrained daydreams lead to.
Thanks to this knowledge, I began to try to keep my imagination under control, seeing what terrible consequences it leads to. But this was still not easy, which is a clear sign that I still had something to learn since I continued to suffer.
I was constantly trying to find answers to my questions, and one day I came across a psychologist's channel on YouTube. I found a lot of interesting videos on her channel, but the phrase uttered in one of them could be on a par with Roman Snezhko's method of getting rid of stuttering and knowledge from Thiaooubians.
There was a time when I was daydreaming too much again. After that I had a dream where it was shown where I could end up because of my recalcitrant imagination. And so, I was watching a video of that psychologist in the afternoon where she said a simple phrase: “Madness – is a loss of control”. Thanks to my other understandings, it immediately dawned on me that it was so. This was one of the simple truths of life.
These new understandings additionally helped me spend less time daydreaming, which resulted in me regaining control of myself.
It may be interesting to someone that before finding the aforementioned video, I found the name of my imagination problem in the English medical literature – “Maladaptive daydreaming”.[18]
Here I would like to briefly say why I removed the name and link to the psychologist's channel, which were originally in the manuscript of this book. During my translation of this book into English, I learned that that woman sometimes “took” the text for her videos from the Internet and did not change the content at all, passing it off as her personally created content. Further, some of her clients noted that when talking one-on-one on Skype, that woman psychologist often thought for a long time about the answer, got lost in her thoughts, and in some cases even asked inappropriate questions regarding the client's financial standing. Simply put, she was not at all the knowledgeable, wise professional she appeared to be in her videos. But even though she, apparently, turned out to be not entirely honest and decent, the things she retold (the information that I adopted) are still true, and I found additional confirmation of this in my subsequent life experience.
I think that if people knew the truth about the loss of control over our mind, about meditation and concentration, and about the true purpose of life, then we would have very few people with psychological problems. Also, in psychiatric hospitals there would be fewer mentally ill people. If, of course, they would learn from the lessons of life.
Of course, I am talking about those people who have no physical damage to the brain. But as for those who have, I would advise them to read about brain neuroplasticity.[19]
It is worth noting that the “loss of control” is also our choice. We choose to live in our head which leads to a loss of focus on reality. This can become automatic if, due to the frequent misuse of our minds, we make these erroneous actions a habit. Accordingly, “gaining control” is done in the same way – you need to get used to doing the right actions, focus on reality, until these actions become automatism.
I also decided that I should finish with masturbation. Since I could not give up this habit once and for all, since I could not find a girlfriend, I decided that I would do this only once a week.
The first week was hard. But with the passage of time, I began to get used to the new realities of my life.
I continued to feel unwell after masturbation. In essence, there was not enough time for me to recover in six days of abstinence.
Soon I found the answer to this old question, why I suffered after masturbation.
On the Internet, I was able to find a question of a Russian woman to a doctor. She had exactly the same situation as mine. She felt sick after she masturbated – both with breathing and with her heart. But after she had sex with her husband, everything was just fine with her health. The doctor told her that neurosis was the cause. When I read the description of the neurosis, it became clear that I had many symptoms, which I myself generated by making wrong decisions over and over again.
A long time ago, after I found Thiaoouba, I had a dream where I was given a strong advice to go to the doctor. And there I was, finding two major answers to my main problems from two doctors. Not even a century has passed… In fairness, I could not find these answers years earlier, since they did not exist then. But if I myself were not afraid to ask a question on a forum, then maybe someone could have helped me.
Needless to say, I could not have lived my life differently, since back then I simply did not have the knowledge that I have now to make another choice in the situation in which I was in the past. This is another simple truth that I realized, and which helped me to stop worrying over time because of what I did and what I did not do in the past. I did exactly what I had to do – no more, no less.
Although there are people who believe that fate can be changed (the original plan of the Superior Intelligence). I must say that I had a moment when I again began to constantly focus on reality, and I noticed how the life lines on the palm of my right hand changed. The change was so noticeable that it felt like I was looking at someone else's hand. But then everything returned to its former state when I returned to my old habits.
I do not know what is the reason for such a change in the life lines.
I believe that I also saw that moment of my life when I viewed it together with the Higher Self. But then this means that the life lines do not show exactly what must happen. A possible proof of this is my other experiences with the life lines, when dots and strikethrough lines appeared on them and then disappeared. Therefore, I am ready to consider the theory that the life lines can show what is likely to happen.
Then I found out that I was wrong when I believed that a short line crossing the life line means death. Had I looked at the description to refresh my memory back in the day, then I could have made the right decisions.