Spread the word

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Spread the word

Stefan Isaiah

Copyright: © 2013 Stefan Isaiah

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published by: epubli GmbH, Berlin

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ISBN 978-3-8442-5625-3

Thanks to

God, who created this wonderful world for us humans to live on this earth together in love, peace, support and understanding for each other.

Jesus Christ, for that He is the way, the truth and the life for all of us who search Him and ask

Him for His support.

All my sisters and brothers and readers of this book, who already support me and each other with just their belief and light filled presence here on earth. May we be blessed with strength and wisdom to keep on fighting for a better world full of love and support for each other.

All people working for God and serving God through their lives.

Introduction

Short summary of the content

This book is based on a true event which happened in the last months of 2012 and the beginning of 2013. I was on skype and fell in love with a woman, which is nothing unusual nowadays. The exception was that I became unknowingly a victim of a Love scam (and even a God scam), which cost me more than 20,000 Euros just within 2 months. The story shows how mighty a Love scam can be, and how far the scammer is willing to go. On the other side it describes my feelings and experiences, my struggles and my rescue through my belief in God and Jesus. This book is not only of interest for Christians, but for all of us who are spending some part of their life and spare time online. It is a story that wants to touch you and will touch you, if you don't have a heart of stone.

About the story and its message

It took me weeks of inner searching, praying, thinking, feeling and a mixture of changing states of fear and joy to finally find the right words for the introduction to this book.

Today is 28^th April 2013, Maundy Thursday.

My wish is to reach as much readers as possible, as the message of this book is universal and should integrate all people who are interested in God, life and its manifold miracles and lessons for us. So I will try not to ‘overload’ this book with Bible verses and comments on the story which I will tell you, but as the core message of this book results from my love to God and the struggles and my fights during the story, I want and have to honour His great deeds on me.

‘Spread the word’ as the title of this book came relative early in my mind, since I felt that I had to write my story down in this book start of January 2013.

I had the message in my mind, ‘If the Lord has shown you His Grace, tell the people about it …’ (rough summary). This is a core message of Christianity for me, to spread the word of God's deeds on us, because this strengthens and deepens our belief. In the Gospels, Jesus did miracles to strengthen the belief of the people, nowadays we also need to hear about God's miracles and deeds on us.

"I will tell of the kindnesses of the LORD, the deeds for which he is to be praised, according to all the LORD has done for us …” [Bible, Isaiah 63:7 (NIV)]

The next 3 months till now were very intensive for me, and all my ideas and words concerning this introduction are the results of reading and reviewing the story. Some days were quite okay and I was able to read 10 pages till 15 pages at once, then some days with only 2-3 pages, and then some days on which I wasn’t able and hadn’t the power to read just one word.

But after a ‘normal’ day of reading the story, putting it aside and relaxing a little, I always had visions, ideas and precise sentences in my head of what I will have to write in the introduction of this book, and I immediately wrote them down. Till now these visions/ideas have summed up to 10-15 pages, and I hope I will be able to bring them in the right context for you to read and understand.

You could compare this repeating process of reading the story, getting visions and ideas, writing them down and reading the next pages of the story with a walk through a desert. Sometimes it seems dry, endless and all the same, but while resting and closing your eyes, you’ll receive the reward for keep on walking, as the sometimes hidden inner processes only reveal to you while having a break. If you are empty and searching for nothing special, then it could be that the very special and important things for you are coming to your mind.

So maybe this story is ‘designed’ just to get you out of your normal thought lines, and who knows what will come to your mind while and after reading some pages.

The first visions in January were about love and peace. I started to feel a ‘new spirit’ under the people while I was just walking through a crowded city. My perception started to change, and I could feel some kind of bright and light filled attention under the people, not in all of them but in some of them, and there were more and more with the time.

When new times are coming around, they are only to recognize and grasp very lightly at first, soft and tender, like a wing stroke of a butterfly. And the people, in some way, are feeling that new times are about to come and on the way, and they start perceiving it, feeling it, looking for it and knowing that it is important to be part of it, for to grow and keep in contact with the development of humanity and society.

For me this 'new spirit' is nothing other than the consciousness of unconditional love, a desire to live in harmony with each other and to support each other, to work together on different issues to make this world a better place to live in. Love and peace, sounds ‘cheesy’? Not at all for me. If you could and maybe already feel this new spirit (entering the world consciousness), then you may be filled with joyful excitement, feeling very light filled in your heart and feeling a warm love for the people around you, no matter if you know them or not.

The people can feel that the consciousness of unconditional love is 'coming down' from heaven to earth, their hearts and spirits are lifted by this unconditional love, and the desire to be unified in this love arises from alone.

But I’m not only a dreamer, I’m a ‘man of God’, and therefore a hard worker in that my whole life long. With a new spirit there also comes a lot of work and responsibility for those who live with this spirit and take part in some way.

Love and peace. Love means work (for example serving others, helping others), peace is the result of this work. But as the way is the goal, what great way is this to love in all forms. Not only your family, your close friends, your favourite bands, sports, hobbies etc.. The main task from my point of view is to start to develop unconditional love in you, the highest form of love which we humans are capable of, like a mother to her child. So if you walk around with an open mind and the willingness to be part of a new love filled and light filled consciousness (which exists not only since a short time but was always there in God, but now comes around in an intensive and experienceable/tangible way for humanity to solve the massive problems we are having worldwide), you may feel be carried and filled with joy, and that alone should be worth it, beside all the good effects it will have on humanity and society in general.

The Greatest Commandment

“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself'. There is no commandment greater than these.” [Bible, Mark 12:28-31 (NIV)]

We are entering nothing more and nothing less than the core messages of the New Testament.

And for us and all those who also struggle and fight for divine love and light, let me quote the Beatitudes.

"...The Beatitudes

He said: 'Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.' ”

[Bible, Matthew 5:2-12 (NIV)]

That is the core message of this book: Love each other as God has shown us through Jesus, forgive each other and let’s start together again as one humanity, trying to be worth of the endless love God always had, has and will have for all of us.

Why did I finally found the strength to write these easy but powerful words in the introduction of this book? Because I've suffered deep fears during the last three months, fears for my life, fears for my peace of mind, fears for my belief in God. But again and again, often daily, God built me up, loved me in my fears, showed me ways out of situations and strengthened my belief in Him in such a way, that I’m finally able to tell the world about His deeds now, and thank Him with all my heart and my soul for His grace, forgiveness and endless love that He has shown me.

God bless us all.

“The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth ." [Bible, Psalm 145:18 (NIV)]

The development of the story

This book is kind of a test of my belief in God and His promises to me (and all of us), written in the Bible. If He never lets me down then He never lets me down and helps me, always. He keeps His promises, always. If His promises count for one, they count for all. It's about God in our daily lives, our problems, sorrows and struggles. Since this story is happening to me, started in October 2012, and I began to write his book in January 2013, I'm praying continuously to God, a steady process of asking, doubting, finding, getting answers, trying them out, seeing that they work, being thankful for them, moving on, struggling and getting fears again, praying again. And so this book develops step by step, gets enriched, and I get more and more in contact with humankind through my spirit. I can feel the rising support while meditating on humankind, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and what it means to me and us to be united in this way. I try to put my insights in easy and understandable words, so that you, the readers, can 'take' these words and don't feel irritated by the text and its content, one of my biggest sorrows when I'm writing the introduction.

This story has changed and is still changing my life, and I feel called to communicate with humanity through this book now, to get out of my shell, to improve and perform this new part of me (sharing my insights and experiences) in service to mankind as God wants it from me. This feeling has become stronger and stronger with the time, and He has convinced me in a plain but distinct way.

God has 'designed' this 'task' for me and prepared it perfectly. My life situation before the story has started: Enduring inner loneliness, inner emptiness, unable to feel like a human being (numbness), no one of my used environment and colleagues were around me at work (due to reorganisation), the increasing longing for love (emotional love). And as I was searching for love I found love, unexpected, intense, real for me, and I also found my belief in Jesus again.

What was happening inside me from the beginning of the story till now

Why do I still have the fear that God will let me fall?

Since the beginning of the story as I was reborn in Jesus again, and he redeemed me and forgave me all my sins, and gifted me a new life, since that day I was save in him, the same way as I was save in him in my old life before. Jesus never lets me down. He knows this, he always keeps his word and promises. So he could give me that heavy task to risk all for him, because he already knew at that point how to get me out and he knew my future. With God nothing is impossible. I had forgotten this, or couldn't feel it in my heart, or had lost my belief in that, because my old life had cost me all my strength and all my faith, and I was very tired and exhausted on all levels (spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically).

But he knew that and gave me this new life, and thus gave me this new task to start my new life, to become and grow strong in him again, and to find my belief in him again and finally get used to my new life. What also was or still is new for me, is that I can ask others for help and support as for example through this book. My whole life I've always walked alone and had no one to talk to. Sure, temporary support through people but always 'unknowingly', I could never say: 'I'm working on this for the Lord', or 'The Lord wants this from me, could you support me please', or 'I'm down and exhausted. Please build me up with the warmth of your heart and your faith in the Lord, support me please'. I never had the trace of an idea to do this. Now, as I'm about to finish this book and working on the right words for my introduction, I'm starting to open myself more and more.

What else is it to write a book, a book about myself and the story I have just experienced, a story which has changed my life and on which I am still working to digest and to overcome. I will tell you about my love to a woman, my renewed love and relationship to Jesus, the process of starting a new phase in my life, and I'm sharing all this intimacy with the whole world. That is opening myself to the world, nothing else.

So what is missing to recognize that the missing key for me is to open myself to you? Well, it's still Maundy Thursday and 10 minutes ago I got this insight, and now I'm opening myself to you in a way of full trust, so that I can reach you with my words and you can feel and understand me and my process.

So I'm asking you for your support for me: "Please build me up emotionally" (I need the feeling that the family of Christianity supports me and understands me and forgives me). "Please build me up physically" (If you are just thinking of me and pray for me I will feel that, and get some power to be able to regenerate from the last 6 months of permanent stress, fear, less sleep, struggling for my belief in God and for my transformation process into my new life. "And please, of course, build up my heart and my spirit, I need your unconditionally love from human to human, from Christian to Christian, from sister to brother, from brother to brother, from fighter to fighter, from everyone who is touched by the story and can feel that I need her/his support. I thank you from the bottom of my heart."

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. [Bible, Matthew 7:7-8 (NIV)]

And I ask you to spread the word and make this book a success. As a sign that God never lets you down and supports you, and not only through His love, light and strength that He will give you, but through the love of your sisters and brothers. And as a sign that our Christian belief and community is alive and works without many words and organisational structures. I'm just asking for this fresh and light filled spirit. My wish is to feel God's love not only from Him to me, but also between all of us.

You may ask: "You always walked alone with the Lord and now you ask for our support?" Well, if this question should appear, I would answer: "One for all and all for one", "The Parable of the Lost Sheep" or "Big is God's family. If a searcher and fighter of your family finally returns from 'the end of the world' back home, welcome him and let him tell what he has experienced."

The Parable of the Lost Sheep ^"Then Jesus told them this parable: 'Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent." [Bible, Luke 15:3-7 (NIV)]

If my words seem to sound artificial or complicated or all too clear: As the core message of this book is unconditional love, I'm just trying to ask in a simple way for the known forms of this love.

I hope I've found the right words to tell you what is going on in me, and how I finally found new hope today and understood the whole process of the last 6 months for me. If I would stand in front of some of you in an auditorium, to tell you the story in short words and what it's all about, I guess I would be able to reach you and find the right words, and feel your understanding and support while being together with you and having eye contact. As writing this, I can already feel that this is happening, you are there, I am there, we are there together and not separated, space and time are real for us but there is something more and I guess everyone knows and feels this in some way. If we are one in the Lord, what should separate us? If I pray for help from my sisters and brothers, why should they deny it to me? Why should I have fear if I never walk alone? Why should I doubt if God promised me to never let me down? Well, now I got it, thanks to you all. This is the most beautiful and humbled Maundy Thursday I've ever experienced in my whole life, and now I know and feel that I am really reborn in Jesus. The main process has started 6 months ago and finished today in its first main step.

And I can confess with all my love and before the whole world that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.

I'm feeling so redeemed and bright and light filled, just as if I am lifted up to heaven into the arms of my Lord. What a fight, what a struggle, what a long long dark night before the dawn.

All what has been written about Jesus in the Bible is true, I not only believe it, I feel it, and I can feel the holy truth of Jesus and His words. I cannot describe my state of mind now, but I feel very calm, peaceful and filled with a very bright strength, light as a feather but very strong.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

[Bible, John 13:34-35 (NIV)]

About the story itself (What this story is about, framework and background)

The story of this book is real and happened to me from October 2012 till mid of February 2013. Since the late summer of 2012 I was online on yahoo messenger and skype to get in contact with people worldwide. After 12 years of being fixed on my job and my partnership/working group, I was looking for some other impulses in my life and I started to chat. Most of the times I got in contact with students at the age of mid till end twenties, we talked about their studies, their plans for life etc.. I was (and still am) 40 years old and was starting some kind of new phase in my life. I returned to the start of my business life, and this was the end of my studies 12 years ago. So this 'constellation' between me and the chat partners seemed to fit.

In July 2012 I got in contact with a young student (woman) from Washington State. She was in the summer break before her 4th semester and we chatted a lot and fell in romantic love with each other. This short relationship lasted 10 weeks, then her studies began and we lost contact, but put an end with no problems or hurt feelings. In review I would call it 'summer love', nothing serious, but with much emotions and it was okay for us.

Then I felt that my chat experience was coming to an end, but I missed the chats with my 'summer love' in some way. So as one week after we separated I was asked to accept a new contact on skype (My profile was 'public' which I didn't recognized at that time, and which can be considered as the first step that led to that story), I spontaneously said 'yes' and accepted that contact request. But then I had some kind of bad feeling (intuition) and blocked the new contact 2 days after accepting the new contact without talking to her. Would I've let it that way, this book wouldn't exist as it is here now. But God and fate had other plans with me,

so here the story goes ...

Comments of the author, about the author himself

Yes, I'm a man of God, searching for him since I was born and always being guided by him as I felt him close to me, inside me, as kind of my best friend who is always there for me. Since the age of 4 years, I asked my parents about God, who he was, and my first job wish was to become a priest later in my life. So as I was raised in Christian belief, I took part in Kids Church, loved to listen to the stories of Jesus and to sing modern church songs. Later I became a Youth group leader in my church and had a lot of good and joyful experiences with Youth camps and Youth weekends. So in my Christian belief I felt home, save and the people around me were good hearted and honest with me.

This background is important to understand my acting in the following story, as without this background it might seem strange how this story goes.

But whatever you believe in, may it be God and Jesus, may it be in yourself, some higher power, some other religion or nothing at all, the story is understandable for everyone, because it touches the fundamental search for love in our lives. And this is what we humans are sharing and have in common beyond all our differences in belief, culture or live style we are in.

The structure of the story

For me the story is build up like a climb on a mountain: A smooth start, a longer ramp of gaining height, a peak experience, a descent and then a kind of walking on a plateau for a while till coming back to the starting point, but as a new person, changed by the experiences during the hike.

Last words before the story starts

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”

[Bible, John 1:1-5 (NIV)]

Words can be very powerful as we all know, and from time to time this becomes visible in a way we didn't expect it. If you really love someone and tell her/him that, and the one tells you trustworthy that she/he loves you the same way, then you are in heaven and everything seems to be possible, the sky is the limit.

Words can transport and create in the listener feelings, thoughts, dreams, wishes and so on. Words can heal and words can destroy, they can lift you up or pull you down. Whatever it is, whomever you talk to, be aware of the power of your words. Words in spoken or written form are the main communication channel of us humans. Sure, sounds simple and unnecessary to talk about, but I watch that nowadays words are tending to be used to manipulate others and gain control in some way over others, for whatever reasons and goals (not only in this story but all over the different media like TV, Internet, Social media etc.). This could be considered as 'fun', but hurting others with lies or gaining their trust, or manipulating them to do things they normally wouldn't do is an act of violence, and violence doesn't fit in any kind of relationship or way how people should communicate with each other.

In our very rapid and fast changing times and manifold communication media it happens

often and easily that we lose our focus, and 'just' communicate or 'just' act without reflecting our actions from time to time.

I hope this book will give you the chance to take a break from your daily life, enter a higher reality/level of life and reflect your life as it is now with all its good and not so good aspects.

Questions and answers

And as I can already feel or hear the questions of the sceptics (which I do welcome, because they open the chances for answers and new views on things), here are some of these questions and my answers to them, and maybe this helps to get this introduction finally back to the ground of our daily lives.

Question1:

"Man, what is he talking about? I don't like to be told what I should do or in which way I should do it."

Answer:

"I don't want to teach someone how she or he should act. But as I see a big lost of universal and good values in our societies, I felt the necessity to tell you about my basic points of view concerning actual tendencies, which could lead our societies further away from their center and split the people and the invisible social glue further as it already is."

Question2:

"Why so many words in the introduction? It's a story about a Love scam, and okay, a God scam also."

Answer:

"Maybe I'm to 'blue eyed' in general and try to put too many things together in one frame. If I would only address this book to my Christian sisters and brothers who are strong and experienced in their faith in God, then I would have an 'easy game', a 'home play'. But I don't want to reach only my 'main audience' or 'family in spirit', but also the people with other focuses in life, with different backgrounds in their belief and life experiences. And so I try to describe my views on the story and my thoughts about it from different angles and in different ways, to reach as many readers as possible, because for me it is very important to communicate cross over society, and with that to already start my work for a new unity spirit in our societies. I was just 1 meter away from ruin my life, only because I was isolated from others, from their knowledge and their support. These others were always there and I guess their wish to help me also, but this isolation in society due to different reasons (I don't want to burst the frame of this book) is dangerous. And as I experienced that and survived it with God's help and my faith in him, I wish to share my experiences with many others, so that they directly or indirectly can protect themselves or others from my mistakes."

Question3:

"In the introduction and also for each chapter of the story you quoted Bible verses. Why?"

Answer:

"Without God and my belief in him neither the story would have happened at all nor this book would exist. Furthermore I was gifted with a new life by Jesus (just in the first week of the story), and this story and this book, and my insights and experiences are already a part of this new life. So I put this book in a divine context and frame to honour God and Jesus with this book, and to honour them with my honest efforts to bring this book and its message closer to the people. Without God in one's life in general, and this book in particular, it's very easy to lose your focus on the things that really count in life. The quoted Bible verses may give the reader a short break between the chapters of the story, may give her/him the chance to meditate a little on these words and their message, and then you should be able to go on with a refreshed spirit. Even if you are not a Christian, these Bible verses include comprehensible wisdom and can be transferred in daily life experiences. The core messages of the Bible verses for me are mostly: 'Have faith in God, ask him for his help and support, and he will help you and answer your questions' (rough summary). The Bible is full of life experiences and reports about these experiences and which role God plays in critical situations in life, and the Bible offers solutions and ways out of that problems. Wisdom can be found in all religions and cultures, but as I'm a Christian, and this story is also about Jesus Christ and my relationship to him, I preferred Bible verses in the context of this book."

"For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow,

so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations." [Bible, Isaiah 61:11 (NIV)]

About Privacy

Although the story is real and I didn't change or shorten it, I've changed the names of the persons concerned in the story and the names of places, just to protect their privacy ...

About romantic content

As the message of this book is a divine message, the story that led to that message, or gave birth to that message, or already had the message in it from its very start, is a love story. A love story between two people who met on skype and fell in love with each other. An in the run of the next 3 months the love became deeper and more intensive, but due to the distance of the lovers (Germany and Ghana) they just had their words to describe their love for each other and to live their love. There is no sexual content in this story, but they talk about kissing each other, hugging each other, cuddling with each other, missing each other as quite each love couple fresh in love does. So I hope this part of the story with its content of romantic love doesn't disturb you. I myself consider this romantic content as suitable for all ages, for persons from 14-16 years on.