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19. STARS

Time is a great deceiver, illusionist. It only seems to people that they have learned to measure it with hours and that it always flows evenly. Time speeds up, then slows down, or even stops. It seems to me, it doesn’t stop, it is stopped by people. It’s very dangerous to play with Time. The word “play” for me personally already carries something negative and false. As RAM once said, “People are playing. We are not…” Time flies faster over the years, and the realization of how much I had no time to do is painfully gnawing at me inside. So suddenly and completely unnoticed, Spring came to our city again.

“Hello,” I said, opening the door for her.

“Hello, Girl the April,” she said with a smile.

“Have you accidentally brought with you the Man Who Was Not?”

“Who is he? What a funny name!”

“I don’t know, but I want him to become the Man Who Is.”

“No, I haven’t heard anything about him, but I brought another stone for your rosary, with which you count the years in the Earthly Reality,” Spring answered, holding out a moonstone with another two-digit number engraved on it.

Nonna congratulated me in the morning. The star of the “Battle of Psychics” series, it was easier to see her on television than in the original. They started making a documentary film about her, Nonna invited me to participate in it by telling people about our accidental acquaintance, my books and paintings about Another Reality. I was happy for her. Unlike many psychics, Nonna was real.

My friend, Larisa the astrologer, had worked in a highly advertised center of wizards in those days when there was almost nothing on store shelves. Her colleague used to tell clients to bring as a gift to the gods something that, for some reason, was absent at her own house. In fact, everyone was required according to their financial capabilities, which had been clarified in advance by the clairvoyant. For example, for happiness in their private lives, girls gave the gods a set of bed linen (of course, a new one), and old women brought a variety of food to remove magic damage. The wizard did nothing for them, since she possessed no abilities, except for convincing clients of the need for sacrifices.

Once again despaired by no manifestation in the Earthly Reality of the Man Who Was Not, I decided to turn to the stars, or rather, to an advertised astrologer on an equally advertised website. For a stellar consultation, one needed to send the date, time and place of birth, one’s name, question and email address, and transfer some money. As you had already understood, my question was the following, “When will I finally meet my man?”

In the evening, I received a multi-page answer, but I was happy not for long. Until the last sentence, it was the description of the location of the planets in the Zodiacal Spheres at the time of my birth, which for a person ignorant of Astrology was like reading a book in Sanskrit. Only the last phrase was the desired answer, saying, “Taking into consideration the mentioned above, you must get married and give birth to your first child before the age of 35!”

I burst out laughing, the Astrologer didn’t realize that I could have managed to do all that many years before, but I had never met my man.

If you have questions for the stars, contact Larisa. She hosts a corresponding broadcast on television and can talk about Luminaries until the end of time. Larisa compiles Natal Charts, a multi-page document about the planets at the time of one’s birth and, as a result, what the newborn is predisposed to in the Earthly Reality.

I read my Natal Chart, having already lived long enough on the Earth to appreciate the level of the truth, and to assure you that if it is not truth itself, it’s at least something very similar to it. The Natal Chart is compiled once in the current incarnation, and if you don’t have one yet, take a look at your Star Solitaire. It’s very interesting. Perhaps such information will help you answer the question of who you are and for what purpose you are sent to Earth.

Larisa makes me also a forecast for the New Year, which begins on one’s next birthday. The main trends of the next year depend on the location of the stars above the place on the globe where you will find yourself on New Year’s Eve. If you look at them in advance and the forecast doesn’t suit you, you can look at the location of the stars on the same date over other cities and move in space. Thus, unlike the Natal Chart, which one cannot avoid, the next year plan can be adjusted.

The main leitmotif of my current year according to the stars was life as a hermit, immersion in creativity, completion of literary work. In general, it all turned out to have passed that way. Agree, no matter how much I wanted something else, they sent me no one, except for the Man Who Was Not and the Moon Cat. I had almost come to terms with it. “The same deal won’t happen twice,” I thought, waiting for the approach of my New Year with a secret hope for…

On my birthday, I invited all my close ones and not so close, including the MWWN, who had disappeared from my horizon many months before, to a cozy cafe. Everyone who couldn’t come for some earthly reason called to congratulate me, or sent me a message, one of the dearest was the following, “Dear Alice! Happy birthday!!! Good meetings with interesting people on the wide open spaces of the distant roads of Your Path! I know YOU ARE GREAT! With love, RAM.”

The MWWN didn’t come, didn’t write, didn’t call.

Larisa solemnly handed me the forecast for the coming year. As usual, hoping for the best, I excitedly opened the star gift and read the first paragraph.

“A year often brings a radical change of residence, leaving for a monastery or solitude. Favorable for everything secret and not manifested. Communication with monks, astrologers, occultists, theologians and philosophers. Occult, philosophical, theological, literary works. Training in secret knowledge, involvement in mystical and magical processes. Rethinking and transforming of life goals…”

“Thanks to all the stars for everything at once!” I thought, not without bitterness.

I cast a bit of spells on the stage. They asked me questions and gave me flowers. I asked people not to give me flowers, but for some reason they thought that I was flirting with them like that, and every time gave more and more.

I love flowers very much, even, perhaps, much more than the givers do. I love all flowers, except for carnations, since my mother was buried strewn with carnations, although I perfectly understand that carnations have absolutely nothing to do with it. However, I love flowers growing no matter where: in a field, in a flowerbed or in a pot on the windowsill. In my garden, I don’t grow potatoes or others like that, but I plant flowers along the path from the house to the well. Moreover, there is a clearing with daisies, clover, buttercups, cornflowers, bluebells, yarrow and other local residents, which make me and the butterflies, that constantly fly to visit us, happy. Cut flowers remind me of people whose days before the transition to Another Reality are already numbered.

When I left the stage, bards began to sing romances composed on my spells, and a stranger invited me to dance.

“Who are you?” I asked.

“Misanthrope, although it doesn’t matter. I love your creativity. One day it will be appreciated. At least by the Higher Forces. Unfortunately, our world is too cruel. The wrong stars are lit up in it, the fake ones. This is done for money on the Earth. But real stars are given to us by Heavens, and they don’t know what money is,” the man said.

“Have you read my ‘Another Reality’?”

“I read it in one breath, Alice. You are an amazing woman, but the Man Who Was Not is just…”

“He just didn’t wish me a happy birthday.”

“You know, it doesn’t matter anymore.”

“Why?” I was surprised.

“You immortalized Him with your spells, making him history. His name is forever written next to yours in the Astral Tablets,” the Misanthrope stated with a sad smile.

“Do you know His name?!” my heart sank.

“No, but I hate Him. For the pain He caused you.”

“You can’t hate people, even if they hurt you.”

“You deserve the best in the world, not pain.”

“Everyone has what they deserve. My stars say that glory will reach for me… Posthumous.”

“Alice, you will never die. But, you know, if I were you, I would already start compiling a list of Dark People who offended you during your lifetime, so that the descendants would anathematize them!”

The Misanthrope smiled. I laughed.

Having returned to my earthly home after midnight, I put the roses to bed in the bathroom, lit the candles, and opened my email. New Year’s Eve smoothly flowed into the First of January. I found no letter from the MWWN (of course), but a congratulation from a friend who communicated with Tarot cards, scattering them like astrologers were scattering the stars.

“Alice, I took out three cards to see your Future. You got the ‘Wheel of Fortune’, which means that success and luck are coming to you! The Wheel of Fortune is picking up speed, beware of interfering in the course of events, don’t make unnecessary movements, otherwise it will blow you away! Strive for the center of the wheel, for its only fixed point, your own Self. Stop and watch. Look at your problems through the eyes of an outside observer; this is the only way to find their solution. Your most reliable support is yourself. Be confident in yourself, don’t change your principles. Change is inevitable. If you have a streak of bad luck now, everything will turn out for the better soon. If you have a streak of good luck, get ready for the situation to worsen. This is a regularity, no need to be afraid, just remember that Fortune usually doesn’t come by itself, it’s brought by other people!”

I thought, “What kind of streak I have now?” A rhetorical question, the answer to which one could find out only after moving to the next one.

“The second card is the ‘Chariot’. Some Power will force you to leave what you cannot forget – home, work, friends. You are overwhelmed with energy, looking for a new field for its application. Changing places is a great way to change your surroundings, take your mind off everyday life and the problems of a noisy city. Embark on a Path which will become the discovery of a New World. Don’t forget to be careful, the Path is full of sharp turns and surprises. The card means the end of a life stage; a change of residence is possible…”

I was going with RAM to the mountains, and, as many predicted, the trip should be the beginning of a new stage in my life. However, the sentence about the change of residence, like the stars of Larisa, the prediction of the palmist-astrologer in India, the prophecies of Santa Claus, as well as those strange dreams about my new home, spoke of something having no prerequisites in the Earthly Reality.

“The third card is the ‘Orchid Tower’. In the very near future you will meet a Man with whom you will find happiness and love. If you have relationship already, expect a fan to appear with whom you will have a whirlwind romance.”

It was apparently some kind of mistake or joke, or the woman had simply decided to please me, but I thanked her for the gift. As they say, hope dies last.

I looked at the Saint, who, according to Maria, protected those who belonged to Another Reality on the Earth, saying, “Listen, please give me a gift by showing this Man to me. Who is he? I have almost got a house in Another Reality, and He’s still absent. Show me His face so that I can be sure that He really exists.”

I put out the candles and left for the Kingdom of Dreams. Of course, you won’t believe me, they showed Him to me, exactly on that very night and very clearly, but he was…

…the Man Who Was Not…

20. The MAGIC of COLOR

My ex-classmate Catherine asked me for a meeting, since something bad had been happening in all areas of her life, and, as a result, she got a depression. So Catherine was sitting opposite, all in black.

Any color has a continuous impact on one’s physical and mental state. The color of clothing, like the color design of the interior, says much more about a person than he does about himself. People, as a rule, don’t think about the essence of a particular color. The choice occurs on the Subconscious level and means one’s hidden need for energy corresponding to some color, or rejection of it if we avoid a certain color.

“Why are you in black?” I asked.

“It happened somehow. What does BLACK mean?”

“You don’t know where to go. It’s a pause between two periods of life. In the East, Black, oddly enough, symbolizes winter. You put your thoughts in order, delve into yourself, concentrate on your problems, try to solve them. You have withdrawn into yourself, keeping distance, isolating yourself from the outside world, you don’t want to communicate. If someone invites you to a party now, you’ll refuse, and in vain. Black clothing increases depression. It’s suitable for solitude and seclusion. By the way, do you know who chooses Black in their clothes, besides the monks who purposefully wear Black? Sadists and masochists. I don’t think you are a sadist. Why be a masochist? Concentrate on the Light, think about the Good, and you’ll definitely attract them. I wear Black on rare occasions, although there was a period when my wardrobe had no other color. However, it was a long time ago when my mother died. They thought I wore Black in mourning, but the Subconscious chose it so that I could survive her death. Black protects from external influences. The terrible year was over, and the color scheme changed.”

“What color did you choose next?”

“Not me, the Subconscious. DARK BLUE, or indigo. It’s close to Black, but it opens the doors to the outside world. Dark Blue also indicates deep thought, attention and self-absorption, but it provides will and confidence, strength of character, courage, gives awareness of one’s own strengths. You set a goal and go towards it. Dark Blue is the color of faith and hope, a symbol of Eternity. It connects the Present with the Past and the Future, like a bridge. It stimulates the functioning of one’s brain and imagination, favorable for creativity and any earthly work, promotes career advancement. With what do you associate Dark Blue?”

“With water. Well, with the sky too.”

“In the East, it’s a symbol of the depths of the sea and the heights of Heavens, of mystery and immersion in meditation. The color of the deity Shiva-Shakti is half-male, half-female. Dark Blue represents the unity of two principles. It’s the color of the sixth chakra, which is located between the eyebrows, the center of wisdom, intelligence and intuition. The color stimulates the Third Eye and develops psychic abilities. My first Dark Blue happened when I was 13 years old and I went to the church school. Guess my last Dark Blue!”

“It was when you were painting the Girl with the Moon Cat, right? All those paintings were Dark Blue!”

“It’s no coincidence, I painted them after RAM seminar. Wearing Dark Blue, don’t forget that it reduces your appetite. Dark Blue color slows down any biological processes in the body and makes one calm. It’s good to use Blue in bedroom decoration. Many people make baths in blue tones, but Blue is a cold color. Despite the influence of the Moon, I’m still a person of the Fire element, so I have Orange in my bath for balance.”

“Is Light Blue the same as Dark Blue?”

“LIGHT BLUE is softer, more romantic. It sets you up to dream of the sublime and distant, like Heavens. People who prefer this shade of blue tend to be open. It’s important for them to be understood. This is the color of harmony and tranquility. It can mean a sophisticated Soul, tenderness, elegance and delicacy. The fifth chakra, called clean, is Light Blue. Located in the throat, the thyroid gland area, it’s responsible for one’s speech and creative self-expression, revealing hidden talents.”

“But you’re not in the blue period anymore, are you?”

“Don’t you see it yourself?” I looked at my clothes. “VIOLET came to me after Dark Blue, both in childhood and now. Note that Violet is close to Dark Blue, just as Dark Blue is close to Black. It increases creative activity, but it’s the color of Spirituality, sophisticated feelings and relationship. It helps you relate to everything that surrounds you, both people and the world in general, with a light heart, to look at what is happening from the outside. Not indifferently, but as if from somewhere in Heavens. I call that the fourth level of view. The first is when you look at the situation with your own eyes. The second is looking with the eyes of the interlocutor. The third is looking from the outside but still on the Earth. The fourth is looking from There, I mean Another Reality. Although the Violet color itself carries a lot of contradictions in terms of feelings and desires. It can throw a person to extremes. This color tests everyone in which direction one leans – towards the Forces of Darkness or Light. Violet also improves immunity, regulates metabolism and promotes the production of the hormone of happiness in the body. Keep in mind that Violet has a lot of shades. Light and pale ones carry something fragile and romantic, while dark ones carry strength, royalty and even tragedy.”

“It turns out that Dark Blue comes out of Black, as Violet does out of Dark Blue? You were flowing from one color to another, right?”

“Dark Blue doesn’t come out of Black. I made such an intuitive transition subconsciously. Everyone has their own way. By the way, a mystical story happened to me, just at the junction of the last Dark Blue with the Violet one.”

“Does it have to do with that Man Who Was Not?”

“With a book dedicated to Him.”

“I like mysticism. Tell me!”

“I wrote two books for Him, one was in the Dark Blue time, the second – at the moment of transition to the Violet. The first cover was dark blue. I wanted the cover of the second book to be the same color, but with another painting of the ‘Girl with the Moon Cat’ series. Paintings made by mixing blue and white colors produce an impure background, which can cause color rendering problems when printed. To be 100% sure of the Dark Blue color, I made an analogue in a computer program, setting the parameters for a pure Dark Blue background. I sent the files to the publisher and asked to double check it. They confirmed that there would be no problems with the cover, the background parameters were set correctly. Imagine my surprise when I received the book with a Violet cover!”

“So what did you do?”

“I laughed, it was a Sign from Heavens that I had entered the Violet stage.”

“What chakra is Violet?”

“The seventh one, with thousand petals. It’s located outside the body, above the crown. The Kundalini energy connects with Pure Consciousness there, causing enlightenment and awareness of Divinity.”

“Wow! You’ve gone so far! It’s truly breathtaking! I still have to crawl and crawl to get to Violet through all the rainbow colors.”

“I like Rainbow. Divine Harmony is manifested in it. It contains the colors of all our chakras, from the lowest to the highest, as well as the colors of all our bodies, from the earthly to the heavenly. The best way is to surround yourself with each color a little or alternately, without getting hung up on any one. For example, today you are in Red, tomorrow you are in Orange, then in Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo, Violet, and so on. Or combine primary colors with complementary ones.”

“Did you have times of other colors? Or are you always within these three?”

“Of course, I had – Orange for a long time, then a little of Green and Brown. Other colors were present in my life as touches.”

“I remember your Orange. You have a lot of it at home.”

“ORANGE, like Yellow, reminds me of the Sun. Active, not aggressive, but very energetic, warm color, juicy, like the fruit. Orange inspires optimism, cheers up, tunes in to positive, makes you sociable, energizes, stimulates movement. A person in Orange has originality and non-standard vision, including in the area of thinking, which can lead to self-centricity. The Orange state is similar to an approaching explosion of emotions, passion. Small elements in clothing or interior are enough for Orange to work. It’s the color of the second chakra, ‘Abode of Self’, which personifies the sensory world of a human, including earthly love.”

“Orange is close to Red, but you passed it by, why? It’s also fiery, that is, your color, right?”

“RED is associated with Fire, symbolizes the active principle of Yang. It’s the color of leaders, gives energy and determination, creates a mood for victory, attracts the attention of others, means passion, glory and power, sometimes even aggression. A dangerous color. Do you remember the colors of the traffic lights? What is Red associated with?”

“Stop!”

“Exactly. Although in China, Red is considered a symbol of longevity. I’ve heard they sew red wedding dresses. In flats, like any other warm color, it’s good to use Red in the rooms where there is a lack of heat. It also improves blood circulation and increases blood pressure, stimulates mental and physical activity, but at the same time it negatively affects the nervous system and leads to overstrain, so you can’t constantly stay in Red. Imagine you are always in a room where the walls, floor and ceiling are Red, and there are no windows or doors. You’ll go crazy.”

“I agree, Red is only periodically, according to the mood. What chakra is it?”

“The very first one, the repository of Kundalini energy. The first chakra is responsible for one’s connection with the Earthly Reality.”

“That’s exactly what I’m missing. As well as the earthly love. So do I need Orange and Red?”

“Try PINK first. They say it affects men like a boa constrictor affects rabbits,” I smiled.

“To look at the world through rose-colored glasses?”

“Pink smells like childhood. My friend after the birth of her daughter told me, ‘We urgently need to buy her pink blouses!’ I think she will buy not only pink blouses, but also pink rompers, dresses, shoes, toys, and the world around will turn Pink. Pink is installed into the Subconscious, like a program, it means the feminine principle and everything connected with it: softness, tenderness, sensuality. People in Pink tend to be followers, not leaders. This is exactly what men need from women. Pink is the most sensual color. It’s also the color of Love. If you show up in Pink for a job interview, you’ll probably get rejected. If, dressed in Pink, you walk the streets…”

“I can’t imagine myself in Pink!” Catherine was horrified.

“If you want love, fall into Pink. But, as I told you, I had no Pink, even as a child. My parents wanted to give birth to a boy. The doctors promised my mother a boy. They called me a male name, dressed me in trousers, cut my hair short. Unconsciously, they installed a program in me with no Pink color initially. I prefer the raspberry one. They say this color often brings money and stability. During the happiest period of my life, crimson-colored clothes predominated in my wardrobe.”

“Don’t you have anything Pink?”

“Very little. For the mood.”

“Wait, you say you had Orange, Green and Brown times. Why did you bypass Yellow?”

“YELLOW is close to Orange in their meaning and energy. It symbolizes abundance and health, promotes communication, and strengthens the immune system. Those who prefer Yellow are considered to be alien by some people. They are predisposed to creativity, impractical in everyday life, fond of dreaming. They live in the future. A person dressed in Rich Yellow, lacks hope for a bright tomorrow and self-confidence. A person in Light Yellow strives for communication. The category of Yellow and its shades includes also Golden color, the color of purification and healing. It awakens intuition and promotes wise decisions. I prefer beige tones, since Rich Yellow involuntarily evokes negative associations in me. Perhaps in childhood someone said that yellow flowers were a symbol of dislike and separation. In the East, Yellow is revered. In India, it’s a sacred color; girls used to wear yellow dresses at weddings. In the West, the yellow traffic light is a warning of danger. People call the places where those unlike themselves live as ‘yellow houses’. I read somewhere that the color of Judas’ clothing was yellow. I don’t remember that personally, and you?”

“Do you mean, whether I know what the Bible says about this?”

“No, whether you know this not from the Bible. All information is stored in the air and inside you. I can neither recall it nor read about it There. I just thought maybe you…”

“Sometimes I want to write down your phrases! Okay, God be with him, with Judas. Are Yellow and Orange the colors of the same chakra?”

“No, Yellow is the color of the third chakra, it’s located in the solar plexus area, symbolizes physical strength and at the same time is a source of Spiritual strength. It’s good to grow Lotus there.”

“Lotus?!”

“Exactly, look, I have it already grown up. It’s blooming like a big, big flower, and its petals go beyond the boundaries of my physical body.”

Catherine looked incredulously at my solar plexus area.

“Doesn’t Lotus bother you there?”

“On the contrary, it’s great!” I laughed. “I periodically look at Lotus, checking if everything is okay with it, if it has decreased in diameter, if the petals have faded.”

“What for?!”

“Lotus prompts where and what is wrong. It’s an indicator of human health, both spiritual and physical. The larger the flower, the brighter its light, the better. If something hurts, apply the petal to the sore spot. But you should constantly talk to your Lotus, take care of it mentally and fill it with Divine Love.”

“Listen, honestly, I’m unlikely to succeed! I even forget to water the flowers at home.”

“The main thing is that you know about it now, and you can do as you wish. Every moment of life, everyone makes a certain choice that determines their movement in the Space of Options. You are always in motion, your every step, every word, thought, deed, as well as their absence, is a movement to the right, left, forward or backward,” I took a napkin and drew a bold dot below. “This is the point you were an hour before our meeting.”

I depicted several rays diverging from the point in different directions upward to create the spokes of an open fan.

“You had a choice to meet me or not.”

“Well, theoretically, yes.”

“One of the rays means to come here, and the second means not. You came and we met,” I marked the next point on the ray and drew several more rays fanning upward, but from that point. “These are options for whether you ask me about colors, whether you tell me what’s happening at work. Let’s say you asked. At that moment another fan opened up. So you are sliding up some of the rays again. Another fan will open again, when you decide to go on wearing black or choose clothes of a different color. There are many colors for you to choose. So, for example, walking down the street in pink, you will meet a man tomorrow. Another choice from the next point, you will smile sweetly at him or send him in the Middle of Nowhere.”

The napkin was already scribbled. It definitely showed many options for the development of events while moving in the Space of Options.

“Not only global decisions, such as entering college or changing your place of residence, are a step that determines your Future. You create your life every moment completely imperceptibly to yourself and those around you, gradually moving to the left or to the right of the place where you were a moment before. If you choose non-standard steps, you’ll get more chances of quickly moving to another Option of Life.”

“You talk about it so simply, but in fact…”

“In fact, you’ll forget to ask me about the colors we’ve passed by – green and brown.”

“GREEN is the color of grass, the color of summer, but few people wear green clothes.”

“Yes, because Green speaks of stability, and most people don’t have it. Green is the color of hope, an indicator of harmony, symbolizes the energy of nature, life, growth. It uplifts, balances, invigorates, adds strength and restores energy balance, calms the nervous system. Green color is well suited for relaxation and various cultural events. You can go in green clothes to an exhibition or to the theater. It’s interesting that people dressed in Green are perceived as wise advisers. It’s easier for you to convince people that you are right if you are wearing Green. People who prefer Green are vulnerable, awkward and even clumsy in some way. However, being soft, they have sufficient flexibility and diplomacy. I have almost no green clothes, but I like to look at Green in nature, it has a positive effect on the Earthly vision, with which I am not very friendly. It’s interesting that Green can be warm or cool, depending on the color next to it. So with warm colors it’s warm, with cold ones it’s cold.”

“Does it have its own chakra?”

“Yes, it’s located in the area of the heart, personifying purity and innocence. The center of Divine Love, that is, unconditional love for the whole world, the point of balance between male and female energies.”

“You seem to have already said about all the chakras, but there are still colors left.”

“Not in the rainbow, but we have three more colors, such as BROWN, GRAY and WHITE. I won’t tell you anything interesting about them. Brown is the color of conservatism; it grounds a person, immersing in the whirlwind and bustle of everyday life. Gray means boredom, routine, formlessness, sometimes fear and even hidden anger. People who are pedantic and neat often wear gray. I like the Silver color as that of my Fox. During meditation, I saw a silver-colored Flow pouring onto me in the monastery from somewhere Above.”

“Yes, I remember you told me. Does White mean purity?”

“A symbol of renewal, the beginning of a new stage, from scratch.”

“Should I step straight to White after Black?”

“You should feel yourself what is best for you. There is no one recipe for everyone. Everyone has their own, because everyone has their own Path. There are many smart books about the colors. As well as about the best way to arrange one’s earthly home in terms of color. But everyone is unique and lives in their own context. In the West, White is the embodiment of purity and Light; brides usually wear white dresses at weddings, meanwhile in the East, White is a symbol of Death. Don’t overstep yourself, listen to your inner voice. Your Soul is the best advisor.”